"I don't know if it's a bad thing what I'm going through. This loneliness - this lost feeling - when I remove myself from others, I have the sense that I'm unplugged and I lose my direction - I walk this way and that - eat - watch films, TV, anything - other things. I feel best on stage - focused I can see - I know who I am and where to look - I am connected to my talent - there is struggle but I persevere. Tonight the Paris sky is as...