"I'll kill you before I allow you to take the stand to testify without immunity," my lawyer Charlie Gittins railed. "On second thought, I won't have to -- you'd be killing yourself!" I smiled slightly at my defense counsel's impassioned plea. I knew Charlie wanted to protect me, but I felt compelled to take the witness stand. I believed that the truth should be known about the sorrowful events in which I had played a part. "I have to, Charlie. I did...