The Bad Daughter: Betrayal and Confession

by Julie Hilden

Book Overview

When Julie Hilden's mother became ill her daughter didn't do what was expected of her. Julie chose to abandon her mother and make her own life. As a child, she used books to escape her mother's silent... This description may be from another edition of this product.

• Format: Hardcover
• Language: English
• ISBN: 1565121856
• ISBN13: 9781565121850
• Release Date: January 1998
• Publisher: Algonquin Books
• Length: 198 Pages
• Weight: 0.68 lbs.
• Dimensions: 0.9" x 5.3" x 7.3"

Customer Reviews

Powerful and courageous memoir

There are some virulently negative reviews of this book posted here. It's really rather extraordinary. It certainly confirms Hilden's own statement that this is a "taboo" book, that it is not a book with a satisfying resolution of release and forgiveness. Instead, it is a most unhappy tale that is still in progress. That someone could write a memoir like this so young and convey so much pain so succintly is its own denouncement of those who have apparently drawn some half-baked conclusions about Hilden's personality. My guess is that many nay-sayers did not bother to finish the book, and ought to consider more carefully Hilden's reflections on the possibility of Alzeihmers hanging over her like Damocles' sword.Through an almost clinical relay of her life, she shows for us the detachment she uses to describe her as a child. It does not make for easy reading, but you can only mourn for her soul as she relays the trite and malformed relationships she has had with men. It was telling that over a hundred pages of the book went by with no mention of her father. Even in her most dry and pitiless prose one can sense the incessant pain of her life. So often pain is the root source of obsession; that it often results in success --and Hilden is obviously an extremely gifted attorney-- certainly cannot obscure the root pain in her life. Applaud her for this brave expiation; I could at times feel her tears in her writing, it must have been so painful to write this. A tremendous little book; I read it in one sitting.

A well-written emotional tour de force

Ms. Hilden's searching memoir yeilds unsparing insight into the relationship between parent and child. Her elegant narrative grips the reader from start to finish. Ms. Hilden's treatment of Alzheimer's should be read by every relative of every person afflicted with the disease. Such a honest book is a rare gem.

One of the best books written

Julie Hilden has written an amazing book, a book filled with depth and passion. She speaks about the difficult choices she had to face in dealing with the pressures of an incredibly painful family life, coupled with law school demands and those of simply growing up. The Bad Daughter is an honest book -- one that drives the reader to question his or her own character while reading the book, and to ask whether or not the feelings one has as the words pour across the page are derived from empathy, scorn, or a desire to hide one's own similarities to Ms. Hilden. It is written in such a beautiful style, with so many moving episodes, that it will stay with you, forever.

Self-deceipt and betrayal of a sick mother.

The Bad Daughter is not uplifting yet it is a fascinating account of betrayal and confession. In my experience as a social worker over the past 25 years, I have occasionally met individuals who could not or would not assume responsibility for the care of family members in need. Their lack of involvement is often the cause of much personal shame as well as sorrow and resentment within their families. What is at the root of such blatant disregard? How can familial obligations be ignored? Julie Hilden, a self-described "bad daughter," offers some insight into her own dark motivations as she recounts her life of escapism, including abandonment of her mother diagnosed with Alheimer's disease(AD)at age 50. She correctly describes this as a "taboo story" as her lack of concern for her mother is indeed shocking. On the other hand, her refusal to help somehow seems understandable in light of her depressing personal history. She recounts a lonely time as an only child with two unhappy parents who divorce when she is thirteen year-old. She relocates with her mother whose personal misery is intensified by alcoholism and finally by AD. Julie escapes first into her studies and then into the world of work as a lawyer. Emotional survival uncomplicated by her mother's tragic situation becomes her highest priority. Her mother's sister eventually takes charge of her mother's care until death comes at age 53. Meanwhile, Julie finds she cannot form intimate relationships. She ultimately traces her failed romances and friendships to the refusal to help her mother. This is a brutally honest and riveting personal account. There is no happy ending and no clues are offered about the daughter's quest for healing. However, the book itself represents a form of personal therapy and hope for the future. To better understand the perspective of family members who choose not to become involved in the care of those with AD, this unsettling book is a good reminder about hidden personal agenda and the terrible consequences of deceit.

read it twice

An unsparing, unsentimental account of a woman's physical and mental disintegration, and her daughter's abandonment of her, this beautifully-written, multi-layered memoir is both an apologia and a confession. It is powerful enough to shake the reader's moral certainties, and subtle enough to merit more than one reading.