Rolling Away: My Agony with Ecstasy

by Lynn Marie Smith

Book Overview

This all started as a choice, my choice, but now I was slave to it. Every time I swallowed a pill I was tricking myself into seeing and feeling what was not there. But I could only trick myself for so... This description may be from another edition of this product.

• Format: Hardcover
• Language: English
• ISBN: 0743490436
• ISBN13: 9780743490436
• Release Date: May 2005
• Publisher: Atria Books
• Length: 284 Pages
• Weight: 0.90 lbs.
• Dimensions: 1.0" x 5.8" x 8.7"

Customer Reviews

Tough Reading - Important Book About Drug Addiction and Recovery

I can't say that I 'liked' reading this book - it was at times painfully sad. All young people should read this book, if only to understand that sometimes you don't get a second chance. Lynn Marie Smith had a once in a lifetime opportunity to attend the American Academy of Dramatic Arts in New York. First, you have to be talented just to get in the door, and then you have to figure out how in the hell you're going to pay for everything, if you're lucky enough to be accepted as a student. Smith was a casual drug user who became an addict, and later, an MRI would prove that she suffered permanent brain damage from her use of the drug Ecstasy. Once she was out of rehab, her days of being a student over, she was back home with her parents, working a dead-end job and living in a small town. This is the ultimate truth of what can happen to young people who f--k up their lives with drugs. They might not end up as homeless bag ladies with shopping carts, but being stuck in a low-wage dead-end job is a hell on earth, especially when you had a chance to make the big time, and you blew it. The author's point of view is refreshing - she acknowledges the role that her parents' dysfunction played, but she does not fully blame them (or anyone else) for her problems.

A page-turner thats as honest as it gets

This is one of my favorite books. She is open, honest and doesnt hold back. Some reviewers claim shes not an addict she doesnt know but its not about that. its about trying something and before you know it your caught up in this world of self indulgence. she was lucky. she stopped. this book will intrigue anyone who has tried ecstasy, or has wanted to try ecstasy.

Brilliant and Truthful

Rolling away is a brilliant book. It tells the honest truth about what some people concider to be a harmless pill. For some, once you try ecstasy your hooked; it's hard to break free and Lynn does an excellent job in describing and explaining the horrors that she went through trying to get herself clean. You can go on any website or even google the effects of ecstasy but nothing is better than hearing, well reading in this case, something that actually happened to someone. Lynn shares her whole life story. She explains how easy it is to get hooked, how it feels to be addicted to something and how hard it can be to get your life back. She tells about the show she was on that MTV aired called, True Life: I'm on ecstasy, and explains about the brain scan that her doctor had done on her and the results are scary but so true. This book is for anyone that has ever done ecstasy, knowns anyone that has ever done E, or just for anyone that wants a great true story to read.

The Ecstasy of Ecstasy

It seems like some people get addicted things and others don't. You can get hooked on things like: beer, cigarettes, chocolate, religion, sex, cocaine, pain killers, beliefs, thoughts: come to think of it everything is potentially addictive. Any behavior that is practiced out of compulsion can be considered an addiction. Compulsively giving lectures about addiction might be an addiction. So has she found a new addiction to replace taking mdma. In that case maybe she should kick her lecturing addiction? Whose to say how other people should live their lives?

Thank you

Thank You! Thank You for putting your story out there for all to read. There are MANY parts that I can relate to, although I never suffered through a drug addiction. All of the fears, dark thoughts, internal struggles, hopes, realities, fantasies you described are/were mine, too. Your descriptions of the panic attacks you experienced are riveting, as I experienced them, too. After finishing the book, I was filled with a sense of power to change anything that isn't working for me, and I will. Somewhere along the line I guess forgot I could do that? Your story is not one of a drug addiction, but one of survival.