I was waiting and longing to be rescued... But God I was abused and alone ... But God I was walking away from God ... But God I was in the depths of despair ... But God I was the Man going ... But God I was making plans ... But God I was fighting my battles ... But God I was childless and weeping ... But God I was self righteous and arrogant ... But God I was afraid ... But God I was spiritually stagnant from fear ... But God I was ... But God.....