This book is a diary containing the emotions, feelings, suffering and reflections of one woman, Pastor Kat, who was victimized by the senseless death by suicide of her husband. It's borne out of grief and despondency. Pastor Kat laid open her heart - both the good and the bad - with the hope that it would make a difference. In telling her story she hopes people considering suicide will understand the "multitude of messed up" we get when left behind...